13 December 2008

Cocoon

I broke out of the cocoon this week and went to some parties, and it wasn't half bad!  I don't know why it was so surprising.  There are a lot of uber cool and interesting people here, and furthermore, I used to enjoy going to parties, but I've been experiencing an intense period of introversion.  Perhaps it's the novel thing, a gestation of sorts.  On one hand, it's like reading a really great book that you can't put down--the real world is such an unwelcome intrusion.  On the other hand, it's not quite that effortless (Don R. says that writing poems should feel effortless, and I've experienced that many times--perhaps I just don't have enough practice at novel writing.  Not perhaps, certainly.) and I think I'm afraid to do anything that will break my concentration. I feel like if I stop thinking about the novel it will disappear.  I'm afraid to look away for a moment, and I know fear is not a good state in which to write, so I have to change that mentality asap.  

And the world in a book or the worlds we create when we write are sometimes so much cleaner, so much more homogeneous and so much easier to deal with.

Anyhow, I've always fought against introversion, because it seems unhealthy and wrong, as opposed to extroversion which tends to make things happen and its owners popular, rich and famous.  But right now I'm giving in to it.  Especially tonight it feels incredibly luxurious:  it's cold and snowing out, I rented Stardust and made cookies, and the five of us will snuggle up on the couch in this most privileged and lucky moment.

9 comments:

eliza.e.campbell said...

You are the reincarnated version of Emily Dickinson, back on earth to do all the things she missed: to be cool, kick ass, take names, make excellent food, etc.

Eva said...

good comment, lizer. And I can't wait to return to the cocoon.

The Fam said...

the cocoon awaits your arrival.

The Fam said...

the cocoon awaits your arrival.

Marni C. said...

I can't wait to party w/you, in and out of the cocoon.

I was just telling G that it's sad that I NEVER give parties anymore. hmmm.

M

Bingy said...

Be prepared for at least a year of butterfly-ness while I am a senior and the it-girl of Provo, because that is my plan for when I get back. Besides, by that time you will be a famous writer, and will need to attend all of the parties hosted in your honor. So enjoy the cocoon while it lasts.

Bingy said...

ps: on the fear not being a good mindset: Love the world you're creating, love the words you're using, and love the people you're writing for and your novel will be loved. That's what baking has taught me, and that's why I dot my i's with hearts.

The Fam said...

that's pretty much the best advice on writing i've ever heard, ingy.

Marni C. said...

Best advice on living, Ingy. You're inspiring!